Hello May!

It's May already! After the hard April and the busy March.
Finally I could make it through the rain and that emotional roller-coaster.
Being me is not easy. I'm strong but I'm tired.
But nothing can beat up a brave woman who build up her passion independently.
My big project was done. At least I've done my part and let my team do the rest.
In the early May, I have a rough week but only for this month I'll work until May, 8th.
Just because May is my birthday month yaayy!

Right on my birthday, I'm going to start my journey as a wold traveler.
I'm going to travel to the first country in my bucket list.
Actually this is not my first visit to this country.
But this is the first time I'll be there with my son.
Just the two of us will rock the world together.
Why not? My son is blessed having the coolest mommy on earth.

I'll make this world a little bit more wonderful.
I have so much potential and so many things left to do.
I have time, time for people I love, time for achievement.
Better things are coming my way, so please hang in there.
I can do it.

Drive an Angel from Yourself

Dear son,
For attractive lips, speak words of kindness.
For lovely eyes, seek out the good in people.
For a slim figure, share your food with the hungry.
For beautiful hair, let a child run their fingers through it once a day.
For poise, walk with the knowledge that you never walk alone.
People, more than things, have to be restored, renewed, revived, reclaimed, and redeemed.
Remember, if you ever need a helping hand, you will find one at the end of each of your arms.
As you grow older, you will discover that you have two hands, one for helping yourself and the other for helping others.

Sam Levenson

As you grow up, I teach you for not considering people by their tribe, race & religion.
Instead, you must appreciate people by kindness, hard work & achievement.
Have a mind as wide as ocean, dear son.

The Dark Gaze

Lately, I often ran out of patience and lost my temper. I had no idea why, but in simple analysis, may I said that I was no longer tolerant in people's attitude which spark my inconvenience caused? Regardless people's attitude, maybe it just because I was too tired about everything. Not literally in every single things, but let's say about work and all the responsibilities that follow. I pay my own bill. I ensure my own happiness, that's why I work harder than anyone. Not only harder, but also smarter. Being as smart as I could even I don't think so I get through. I don't have anything but brain. Heart? I might be heartless recently.

Sometimes it's hard for me to control my mood. My mood just like a roller coaster. It's going up and down fast, firm and tight. I'm happy and I'm sad. But I rarely cried again. Crying is boring. It doesn't solve any problems. It would make me calmer but it happened provisionally, so I no longer need to cry. Let it hurt, let it bleed. Let it heal, let it go. Always impossible to make all the people love you and always being nice to you, am I right? You need to be downed in order to raise higher and stronger. And so do I. I have let people go for something they wanted the most. If I was the one they respect yet consider precious, I would no need to demand. Soon or later they will come to me by itself. Do not overthinking, let the universe conspire.

Above all, I never forget how far I've come. Everything I have gotten through. All the times I have pushed on even when I felt like I couldn't. All the mornings I got out of bed no matter how hard it was. All the times I wanted to give up but I got through another day. Never forget how much strength I have learned and developed.

Forever 14

When she finally walked away, it wasn't that she had stopped loving you.
When she didn't return your calls, it wasn't that she didn't miss you.
What it meant was that she just couldn't do it anymore.
All the emotional fighting within her self.
The crying.
The countless nights she couldn't sleep because all the nonsense you were putting her
through emotionally was causing her to become sick physically.
It wasn't that she had stopped loving you,
it was that she had finally realized you had stopped loving her,
in the same way as you did before.
You did.

She loves you to the moon and back. Since you're the first and the last in her whole life. But she couldn't be treated like that. Just, she couldn't.

Don't ask her for maturity.
Because when she's with you, she's forever 14 years old.
The same age as the first time she fell in love.
Truly deeply in love with you.


How time flies really fast... I thank for the amazing 2016. 3 of my dreams were accomplished! 
All of my hard works paid off. I contrived great experiences and more encouragements.

In this year, I throw down the gauntlet to my self for something more challenging and magical. 
Once a year, I'll go someplace I've never been before.
Better to see something once, than to hear about it a thousand times, right?
Because in the end we only regret the chances we didn't take.

Traveling around the world. Going to the place that I had only seen in pictures.
Travel while I'm young and able. Don't worry about money, just make it work. 
Experience is far more valuable than money will ever be.
I believe that travel brings power and love back to my life.
I'd rather have a passport full of stamp than a house full of stuff. 

My Smartphone's Screenshot

Travel as much as I can. 
As far as I can. 
As long as I can. 
Life is not meant to be lived in one place.