Little Wonders

"For me, you like that's Chrysant.. Growing in the middle of this wilderness world, but you became the beautiful one.."
- July 02, 2014

Zero Tolerance

She lays down her head. Sound ticking clock dance in and out her ears. So much to say but no words to convey. The loneliness building with each passing day. But she's getting used to it. She's never shocked when people let her down nowadays. She just hates the fact that she puts herself in a position to be let down in the first place. Just because she doesn't fight back doesn't mean she is weak. It means she's mature enough that anger won't solve anything. When she shuts her mouth and turns to walk away, it doesn't mean you've won. It simply means your stupidity isn't worth any more of her time.

So, who was stupid? 
Her? You said it was her.
You screamed in her face that she was stupid.
How come? Oh she knows, because you're fucking perfect. Illusion.
Stop yelling at her. 
Stop pushing her.
Remove your hand from her body. Do not ever touch her.
Stop hitting her.
Stop bragging. Turning her positivity into negativity.
Just because you are pitiful, you have no idea to let her down.
Because she's so damn awesome, don't you think?
Stop pointing your finger on her face.
Stop fighting her.
God damn it. Insolent, that was she supposed to be in your eyes.
What she's doing right now it's just what she has to do as a human.
Those are God said so. A real human, aren't you?
She's being a real human with conscience in order to deserve a good life.
She doesn't work for good deeds to impress you, not even anyone.
But you are blind. You're blinded by rage.
You're fooled by your mind. Literally, your impure mind.
It's okay, she's fine. Who do you think you are?

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Don't worry, she doesn't hate you. She's just disappointed you turned into everything you said you'd never be. She doesn't worry anything. Because she believes there comes a day when she gets fed up and she just walks away from all the drama and the people who create it. She still has a long way to go, but she's already so far from where she used to be and she keeps walking. Through clouds and sunshine, the best way to heal a broken heart is to give God all pieces. And she did it.

The Reflection

"It's never easy for a good woman to walk away;
especially after she's invested so much of herself into making it work.
Just know, that by the time she finally decides to leave,
she's given you countless chances and debated the idea,
over and over in her head, at least 1000 times.
She's exhausted; she's frustrated and totally heartbroken
to have to walk away from a man who,
deep down inside,
she still loves
and is still willing to fight for."

Reflections Of A Man by Mr. Amari Soul

She started 2015 with pain in her heart & finished 2015 with ungraceful soul and tears in her eyes. All she wanted was to live in peace. But she, can she stop loving him? Stopping this unrequited love & living in peace for the rest of her life. She is so much loving him. No one could describe how much she loves that man. She loves him with all her heart & soul. She feels like the day she stops loving him is the day her heart stops beating.

But that man... doesn't love her as better as he did, neither as much as she does.

She can't stop wanting him. It's pointless to say, so she'll just live her life in dreams of yesterday. Ask her why she keeps on loving a man when it's clear that he doesn't feel the same way for her. The problem is that as much as she can't force him to love her, she can't force herself to stop loving him. She can't stop loving him no matter how much it hurts, because losing him would be so much worse than any pain he could ever cause her.

What happened to her?
She's desperate.
She's broken.
She's tired.

Stop Waiting for Things to Happen

Stop waiting for Friday, for sunny day, for someone to fall in love with you, for life. 
Happiness is achieved when you stop waiting for it and make the most of the moment you're in now. 
Being able to stand up for yourself. If you have problems, as a woman you deal with them, 
you don't play victim, you don't make yourself look pitiful, you don't point fingers. 
You stand and you deal. You face the world with a head held high and you carry the universe in your heart.
 Just because some people didn't know how to give you what you deserved, 
doesn't mean you didn't deserve it, because you did. 
You deserve an ocean of love from all tears you've ever cried. 
You deserve the moment the sun rises and everything after it sets. 
Tell yourself you deserve beautiful things, because you do. 
Stop waiting for good things to happen. Go out and make them happen.

Because I'm a Woman

I've tried to invest my time and money into other people's dreams. No one has ever become poor by giving. I think that helping others succeed will be an easy way to accomplish something without the pressure of doing it myself. The purpose of life is not to be happy. It is to be useful, to be honorable, to be compassionate, to have it make some difference that you have lived and lived well. Stand up for someone who is in need, so that it will build confidence in you to stand up for yourself at times when required.

I hope I could done from doing something that only beneficial for me. But I realize that I need to do something that beneficial for others too. I will support as many children as I could to attain the education they deserve. So that one day they will have better life they have dreamed before. I will help the paupers who suffering a severe disease to go to the hospital for receiving proper treatment, and then redeem their medicine. So one day they will live healthier and happier together with their family.

Because girls compete with each other, but women empower one another.

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