The Hoshizora Foundation

I proudly present, The Hoshizora Foundation, my new family since September, 2014. I join in this activity to help underpriveleged child In Indonesia so that they have access to an education, and realize their full potential, creating a better world to live in. I love seeing children struggle to make their dreams come true. I personally haven’t make my dreams come true yet. But nothing could bother me, I know. And as time goes by, I keep going forward to achieve my goals and also help another children to go confidently in the direction of their dreams. So during the later, together we will live the life we've imagined.

Hoshizora was born from an awareness of the problems of street children in Indonesia. The idea and concept of Hoshizora was created by six Indonesian university students studying in Japan, who looked for a way to help underprivileged Indonesian children gain access to education. Hoshizora became an official organization on May 2nd, 2006. Hoshizora launched its first generation of foster siblings on May 20th, 2006, connecting sponsors (Kakak Bintang = elder siblings) to unfortunate children in Indonesia (Adik Bintang = younger siblings) who lacked access to education.

The Foster Siblings Program is the main program of Hoshizora. Through this program, you can support the education and development of one (or more) underprivileged child in Indonesia. In Hoshizora, the sponsor is called a Kakak Bintang (The Indonesian word “Kakak” means elder sibling, “Bintang” = star) and the child being supported is called an Adik Bintang (“Adik” means younger sibling).

A Kakak Bintang is a sponsor who supports his or her Adik Bintang’s education by providing funds over a predetermined period. The donation is used to pay his or her Adik Bintang’s educational expenses, such as school fees, training fees, uniform, shoes, books, etc. In addition to this financial support, Hoshizora also encourages the Kakak to interact and contribute to the social and mental development of the Adik. Kakak Bintangs are located not only in Indonesia, but all over the world such as in Japan, US, Canada, Germany, Australia, Korea, and France, etc.

 Join us and support Indonesian children to achieve their dreams. Kindly visit here.

Until the End of Time

I try to resist what my heart feels
But I'm falling into pieces
Drifting further away from you
Everything won't seem right
If you were here with me
You'd brush away this loneliness from me

There will never be another by my side
Because all I am is just for you
And there can never be another by my side
I need you here with me
And brush away this loneliness from me
Until the end of time

Everything was seem so right
If you were here with me
Everything was seem so right, once again
I need you here with me

Hingga Akhir Waktu by Gita Gutawa (English Translated)

September 13

I love you means I love you more than anyone loves you, or has loved you, or will love you.
I love you in a way that no one loves you, or has loved you, or will love you.
And also I love you in a way that I love no one else, and never have loved anyone else, and never will love anyone else.

I love you because the entire universe conspired to help me find you.
And if there is eternity, I would love you there again.
You are my heaven for real.

The Wounds of Deception

Have you ever felt your perfect life actually is just a hidden lies? Some people say you are more than precious but actually betray you from behind. Some others told you that they will make you happy by being a good ideal person as you expected, but actually destroy you into pieces time after time. Another people represent you are beautiful as heaven but then ignore you just like you don't deserve life to be appreciated at all. Don't waste your time like an idiot talking to the wall. You will hear nothing. You will receive nothing. Take your time, that lies are just waiting for their time to be revealed. Let God take over.

Lies and secrets, they are like a cancer in the soul. They eat away what is good and leave only destruction behind. If people lie to you, they are behaving badly and unlovingly toward you. They are really insulting you. Even the words "I love you" or "I miss you" are not enough to make up for that. Don't kid yourself that they are.

I act like a stupid monster don't know anything. But actually, I'm watching you lie to me and enjoying the show.

A Taxi Driver

"What do you want to be when you grow up?"
"A taxi driver."
"What's the best part about being a taxi driver?"
"I love car. I will drive a car everyday and all night long if I were a taxi driver."
"Why don't you want to be like Jokowi, as a president?
"And I will get much money?"
"Yes, you will, my son..."
"Who needs money? People need to be happy and fun for living."

June 24

She asked
"you are in love
what does love look like"
to which I replied
"like everything I've ever lost
come back to me."

"Sometimes you have to be apart from people you love, but that doesn't make you love them any less.
Sometimes you love them more."

Angel Without Wings

If I'm fighting and arguing with his papa, I just look down and remain myself that this smart-but-immature man gave me this delightful-and-precious child. And this child doesn't care who's right or who's wrong. All he cares about is that mommy and papa are there. This child is an angel without wings.

Free From Prejudice

Picture taken from here

Today, I'm watching Emma Watson inspiring speech at the launch of the HeForShe campaign. I support UN Women efforts to galvanize as many men and boys as possible to be advocates for change. Their aims to kick-start a global solidarity movement in support of women's rights and full equality between women and men.

I am a woman who lives in gender inequality.
Lack of support to actualize myself.
Lack of chance to raise my voice.
Lack of trust in decision-making.
Just because I am a woman, a daughter, a wife, a mother.

I'm Here

I'm here. I love you. 
I don't care if you need to stay up crying all night long, I will stay with you.
There's nothing you can ever do to lose my love.
I will protect you until you die, and after your death I will still protect you.
I am stronger than Depression and I am braver than Loneliness and nothing will ever exhaust me.

When Someone Stole Your Lover

I know you've lost someone and it hurts. You may have lost them suddenly, unexpectedly. Or perhaps you began losing pieces of them until one day, there was nothing left. You may have known them all your life or you may have barely known them at all. Either way, it is irrelevant, you cannot control the depth of a wound another inflicts upon you.

Which is way I am not here to tell you tomorrow will be a new day. That the sun will go on shining. Or there are plenty of fish in the sea. What I will tell you is this; it's okay to be hurting as much as you are. What you are feeling is not only completely valid but necessary, because it makes you so much more human. And though I can't promise it will get better any time soon, I can tell you that it will, eventually. For now, all you can do is take your time. Take all the time you need.

Lullabies by Lang Leav


Patch of sunlight on a wooden floor. 
The loneliness that separates every living creature from every other living creature. 
Sorrow inseparable from joy.
If the sun is so warm, it doesn't dry tears.
Sunlight is supposed to do that.
I think, sunlight should dry all the rain.

Curently Reading Book #1

Chicken Soup for the Soul: Think Positive (2010)
by Jack Canfield, Mark Victor Hansen, Amy Newmark
The last time I read Chicken Soup series when I was a 12th grade high school student. It's so last decade. 
I miss the contents & the value stories in this books. 
So I decided to get the latest Chicken Soup for the Soul & read it again from now on.

Reason To Live

To be honest, sometimes I don't know what I want in my life. Sometimes, I feel so happy for being workaholic since I have my own workshop, my own business, my brainchild Lavitaebella.
Sometimes I don't want to do anything important, I just want to do what I have to do as a wife and a mother.
 But then I remember, the basic chapter of this life is feeling good by doing good.
Giving positive movements as much as I could for others, for those who are less fortunate than mine.

Even if I don't have a reason to live, I should live my life because my eyes open in the morning.
Sometimes I feel like giving up, then I remember I have a lot motherfuckers to prove wrong.
Even if I don't have specific reason to live, I should live my life as a person useful to the Lord, family, and community.

No doubt. Life is a matter of choice, live well and it will never go wrong.

Not Just A Thing

When you buying from an artist or crafter, you're buying more than just an object or painting.
You are buying hundreds of hours of failures and experimentation.
You are buying days, weeks, and months of frustration and moments of pure joy.

You aren't just buying a thing.

You're buying a piece of heart, part of a soul, a moment of someone's life.
Most importantly, you're buying the crafter more time to do something they are passionate about.

This is one of my Lavitaebella handmade creation. 
I guarantee, all of Lavitaebella products are made with lots of love and smile.

My Journal 2014

We will open the book. Its pages are blank. We are going to put words on them ourselves.
The book is called Opportunity and its first chapter is New Year's Day.
May the 2014 bring you courage to break your resolutions early.
My own plan is to swear off every kind of virtue, so that I triumph even when I fall.